Every once in a while I am getting into a discussion with different people out there and each time when the topic of anxiety is coming up (everybody knows that I am suffering from anxiety), very often they are asking me to describe what I am actually feeling when I am getting anxious… they ask me to describe my anxiety. Now I’ve been thinking that I could make a topic here out of this and ask each one of you to describe your anxiety. Of course I am going to be the first one who describes it so here’s the best ideas that I can give:
So well, look, imagine yourself that you are sitting in your very best chair (the favorite one), in the time that you are watching your favorite movie (or TV Show whatever), with your absolutely favorite drink that you want in your hand and you’ve just ate your favorite food. Everything seem to be so amazing… all calm cool and relaxed with not a single care in this world. You don’t have anything else to do and you have the best feeling in the world right there. and then, all of a sudden the phone starts ringing, it startles you a little bit, however you then return to your relaxed state and you are just figuring that it is only a telemarketer. Well, you are picking up the phone and the voice on the other end of the phone is telling you a message something like the following: *hello, this is police officer XXX from the local police department… I’m very sorry to tell you this but your son has been involved into an horrible car accident…. * Well… just STOP right here! That’s enough… from that moment on this is the exact feeling that I am having when I’m anxious… that is the feeling that you have on that moment is the feeling I have from anxiety… the only difference is that you go there and your anxiety turns either into hate or relief depending on what has happened, however for me this feeling does not go away, it just stays stuck like this all day long… all the long… and very often it stays for so long that it goes into the next day. It is as if you’re never going to find out what has actually happened. I am just feeling exactly as you feel when you have got to the point in the phone conversation when you have been said that your son (or a beloved person) has been in a serious car accident.
I’ve often been trying to describe what I am feeling when I get anxious and I got to the idea that this is pretty much the best description that I could give of my anxiety. Well, now, how would you, people, describe your anxiety?? I really want to find out what do you think about this? about my description… I mean, do you think that it is accurate and a good way to have somebody who has never actually had an anxiety ‘to get the idea’ of what anxiety means? People often hear that anxiety means ‘fear’ and that’s pretty much it. but they still cannot understand and I don’t try to judge them since they cannot know how it feels… I am anxiously (no pun intended) waiting to hear somebody else’s replies on this topic.
And yeah… I am sorry if this was not the right place to post this. if it’s in the wrong place I ask moderators to move it to where it should be. I just see that it is ‘sedatives’ and therefore we talk about medications ‘anti anxiety’ so what would ‘anxiety’ actually means to you? By the way… one last thing here… I have seen a therapist and I am currently on the good medications and that’s why I am rarely feeling this way anymore… luckily. Really hoping that whoever else is going to post here what does anxiety means to them would talk about those feeling ‘in the past’… all the best to you all.