I did have the same issue as you have had with the SSRI then SSRI, after SSRi and so on with my last doctor I have had. Then eventually, I have been given Remeron (it is a typical anti depressant) and this drug has helped me pretty much with my sleep and it does not give me any side effects at all, however the problem is that it still did not helped me at all with my anxiety and panic attacks.
Besides the fact of ordering any benzos from online resources, you are pretty sure that you want to ride the anti depressant BuSpar train out, to find some other doc or maybe both of them. at least this was my situation which is why I recommend you to do the same thing. I have finally found a new doctor that after there were no anti depressants that has helped me with my anxiety and panic attacks, he finally prescribed me BuSpar for a month which, in fact, has also did not helped me besides the fact that he gave me the brain zaps, I think that from all the unnecessary serotonin that was flowing all around through my CNS.
Anyhow, the thing is that after that month I have got the prescription for a med that is called Klonopin (the generic name of it is Clonazepam). It is a medication in 1 mg pills and I’ve got the directions to use them up to 2 or 3 times per day. what I have found out is that in case you really need some benzos for your condition that you’re suffering from, then you are surely going to get them, eventually. I suggest you to try to talk with your doc about this or to find yourself a new one that can understand because all of my anxiety issues I have had (both generalized as well as social anxiety) has been erased (as well as my panic attacks) and all of this thanks to this medication Klonopin.
I do know and I understand that there are quite lots of doctors that are simply so anti benzos due to the fact that it has a pretty high potential issue of addiction or tolerance or abuse etc. this is the reason that these docs are not even prescribing them at all anymore. there are lots of people who overdosed or became addicted so the docs are afraid. and by the way, a real example of why they are so afraid is that my previous doc has lost his job (I haven’t found the new doc. because I didn’t liked the previous one) and that’s because of the too frequent patient complaints that he was not helping with their condition and vice versa, there are docs who lost their jobs because they were allowing too much of benzos so their patients became addicted or overdosed. I just need to say that there always should be a balance in everything.
And yeah, you can always choose the online resource path, however to have a legitimate prescription is always, no matter what, much more safer both medically as well as legally and besides this, you are also getting the benefits of the doctor’s follow ups. Anyway, it mostly depends on the doc himself and in case you have gone through every single possibility in that book of my experience then it can be worth it in the end though. I’m glad and I’m happy that I can live happy. I am living a life free of panic attacks and I am no more having any anxiety. plus, it is feeling awesome to know that I don’t need to rely on any IOPs or any other potential vague sources in order to get the meds that I really need to live a normal life. keep in mind that you need time in order to get the script from your doc because he cannot give it to your right away. Maybe, in the end, you really don’t need a benzo? I’m not trying to be devil’s advocate, I’m just sharing with you a possibility. And even if you do need it then you will receive it. maybe there’s a doc who is so afraid to give it that he won’t give even if you need it, even so, believe me, other doc is going to give it to you, once again, in case you really need it, in case you have severe anxiety.
Anyway, this is just a little bit of information for everybody to think about, mostly – my opinion. and I wish you good luck with the fight you have with the anxiety, I know myself that it can be pretty rough… in fact… very rough. Best of luck.