hello there everyone. I would want to talk about the schedule IV medications and some of the potential legal issues as the titles says. the thing is that I have been ordering one particular schedule IV for some time now… I guess for approximately 4 or maybe 5 years and this is already pretty much time if you ask me. it has been initially an unscheduled drug at all, however, unfortunately in 2014, it has ended up being scheduled. on an average I am placing about 2 orders per month with exactly 100 pills each order which means 200 pills a month. that source (IOP) that I am using it is located in India, which, frankly, I do not really like, however I am not very sure that "New Private Circle", which I am currently a member of and I have used to be for a really long time now, is selling that certain product anymore. either way, I am currently a little bit paranoid about it all and I am kind of wondering what are currently my chances of getting into some legal issues having all of that said. I mean, doing whatever I am doing now - what are the chances that I can get in some troubles? and yeah, I guess it is important to mention here that I am using a pack and mail box and I am not having anything now that it is sent to my home address anymore and that's because in my opinion I already overused it which ended up badly for me… I mean, I am not sure, but now I have the paranoid (which might not be a simple paranoid) that my mail was being (or maybe is still) watched. I didn't got this paranoid idea out of nowhere. I have had a few packages sent that did not require a signature at all, or at least I thought, and there was one time when my package has been taken to the post office and I have been asked to come and to sign for it. I guess there is no need to mention that I haven't done it and it scared the sh*t out of me. but prior to this to happen there were other situations as well. but what made me to decide to stop ordering on my address was another one which I have actually had sent from an SY vendor and it has never arrived to my house so I got to check the tracking and it stated that the "sender had requested that I should come in person to the post office in order to pick that package up". this one has scared me even more and once again, it is obvious that I have never went anywhere near to that post office to get that package (or at least to try getting it). what's even more suspicious (and scarier for me, of course) is that even though that package has never arrived at my house like it should have been, the mailman didn't even leave a note at my door about that package that it has been taken to the post office to warn me about that, besides, I have never even got a call about it either (not that I would go trying to pick it up if I would have gotten either one - but this is even more strange). and yeah, I do know that this might be something normal and I indeed might be paranoid, however I guess you do understand when it comes to law and etc. this is why I would much rather be safe than sorry. and this is the exact same reason why I have decided to get myself a private mail box and to order form IOPs instead of SY vendors and that's even though it is taking much more longer for the packages to come to me… I would say the to me, the entire money gram stuff it is simply way too risky now, maybe again it is just me too paranoid, but in my opinion it is a risk that I wouldn't want to take. and that's especially if you are having orders more than only a couple of times per year which I definitely have. so that's pretty much my story. not even sure what else to say about my shipping and other legal issues. now… any input regarding this situation of mine would be really really appreciated. I really wish that I wouldn't need to write this which means that I wouldn't have to worry about anything, about any of this situation… however it is much more easier said than done. and yeah, I do know what some of the responses will be: try to get that certain medication prescribed by a doctor and all your problems went away. as I said, it is much more easier said than done. despite all that I have done to do so, I still have not been able to find a doctor that is willing to prescribe me that certain drug and that's even though I am not having no side effects from it and it is making my life much much more better since without it - I am not the person that I am, happier and able to enjoy life. the thing is that it is the absolute only drug that it is indeed helping me with the pain, and that's not all… it is also the only drug that I have really found it to be doing a good job with my depression. to make you understand me better I should tell you guys that I did have tried absolutely everything else, starting from prozac to zoloft and wellbutrin and an very big list with other antidepressants but none of them worked, in fact, I really hated the way they worked for me. absolutely nothing similar to how this particular drug works for me. any information or advice regarding this would be deeply appreciated. and yeah, if you don't like to talk about it openly, I'm always ready for private message.