Hello there people, I’ve also been taking Topamax and I do know something about it.. I do know that it has made me very sleepy at night. I have not been taking it for a very long time but I still thought that some of you might find this information helpful. I also have to say that I was taking gabapentin in the past either and I know that it was the Devil’s own concoction. At least for me. yeah, it is obvious that not all people would react the same way as I was reacting on it, it is obvious because if everybody would then this drug would be banned a long time ago. but for me personally, on at least about half of the normal dosage, I have already been slurring stumbling down halls, I’ve been having some really intense disassociative thought processes… it was extremely odd, like for example I was thinking about how a thing is working (I am working as an electrical engineer so do know these things) but in the end, instead of giving the right answer, I have been having some totally adled delusion that would take the place to me. I was very… strange, overall, not anything like me. at first it did seemed right but then I have had to think about things like 2 or 3 times before it has occurred for me that this deluded memory has been wrong… and not like wrong but completely wrong. It has been feeling like I was in some kind of another insane universe or something and like my “completely wrong” thoughts have been right in my insane universe, but definitely not right in reality.
And I guess that it would not be a really big problem if this would happen say once a week, or at least once a day, but god damn it… this has been happening constantly, continuously, it has been happening all day long… and as much as you can understand… it was obviously interfering with my job… greatly interfering as I could hardly do my work because of this, because I have been questioning everything and it seemed that even the questions where not right… not talking about the answers which, as I said, were completely wrong.
But there’s also something else… as if this wasn’t already enough ruining my life… it is the fact that I completely randomly and suddenly would kind of wake up in the middle of a conversation that I was having with my colleagues… or at least that’s what it was feeling like. I was feeling strange… one minute, I am not sure what was happening but then later kind of a boom and you’re there… it is pretty much like when you are feeling when you are spontaneously waking up out of a very weird dream, one that fuzzed headed feeling you are getting when you are getting up very and it is so intense that you are nearly passing out, but then your head is quickly clearing up and you finally realize that you are there and that you are talking with someone, however it is all of a sudden when I am standing in front of somebody, talking with them and having an intense conversation, however, I was having absolutely no clue what we were talking about. sometimes I would even question how I got there, why we are talking about something, about what we are talking and so on and so forth. It was feeling like I got time forward with no memories of what has happened prior. It is like I simply appear there out of nowhere. I remember that 2 or maybe 3 times I have asked a couple of my closest friends that I am trusting if I have been falling asleep or if I passed out or anything in this matter in the time I have been talking to them, but they have said no, said that I was acting normal, like usual, with no visible changes. They realized that something is wrong with me only after I have told them that I’ve just woken up like from a deep sleep.. right in the time I was talking with them. I would recommend everybody to be very and very careful on it and to ask other people to look with an eye on you. personally for me gabapentin turned out to be an horribly insidious drug which I would never take ever again… because of this drug I have nearly lost the respect of a lot of people at my work in the time that I have been on it. which is obvious that I would if I would continue taking it. they were not looking at me like at a normal person, which is obvious… because I doubt that I was acting like a normal person anymore. based on all of that experience I have had with this horrible drug I have fired my psychiatrist right away… but I have also done this based on the fact that he has been having me on a several various things at the same time either and it is because of those drugs that I have been falling apart like that. I simply could not resist all of that, I was simply overmedicated. But the dr. wanted to experiment on me. he doesn’t give a damn that I am working as an electrical engineer and a little mistake from my side and people can die. Such kind of medications given to people working like me are a deadly combination. and what made me even more angry is that during the time that I have been research fellow art a Fortune 500 company… that guy has been experimenting on me with his drugs unconscionable. He might have killed me or somebody else… I would say a big FU** YOU to such doctors, like I said to that one.
And yeah, there’s my bother in law who is also on GABA now, the guys it is so think that you are not even able to tell the difference. so that’s why I guess are applications. But about me… I am reacting very poorly on all of the SSRIs, SNRIs, anti epileptic or anti seizure drugs, GABA analogs etc. all of those off brand pain treatments. I think that in case there would ever ben an alternative reality to escape either then pretty much now it is the right time to do it.
Be safe people and don’t let the doctors experiment on you.