Sometimes I just can’t handle it anymore. I was always a dyslexic and I never had so many problems about it, but not so long ago everything started and I started to feel so bad about this issue that is torturing me every single day. I’m 36 years old, but I discovered that I’m numeric dyslexic when I was very young, perhaps in school times and of course I still am.
During the school years I have never had problems, my teachers knew about it and my classmates too. They got used with all of it very soon and without any problems. I always thought that it’s okay and that all the people in this world have something to care about, nobody is perfect, including me too. Two months ago I wanted to change my work because there were a lot of people that couldn’t accept me this way, and my boss started to drop a hint about my issue because he felt very bad all the time I started to call back a person in order to ask him/her to tell me one more time what is the number. Of course I explained over and over again that I have dyslexia, that I’m sorry. When I started to see that my boss didn’t wanted me anymore I decided to search for a new work, and I really hoped that they will accept me the way I am. I send my CV along with a line and a line that was mentioning that I’m dyslexic. I was so happy when they called me and told me to come to the interview. I was ready to start my job and career again. When I talked with that person at the interview I thought that he will be okay with the fact that I’m dyslexic, but when they found out that I’m actually a numeric dyslexic they told me that it will be really hard to be to go with this, and that the job is clearly interconnected with numbers, with calling people and registering a lot of numbers and so on and so forth.
After half hour they told me that they will call me back with they will find another job for me that isn’t linked with numbers. Since that day passed two months and I’m still wondering why do I have to stay now without work. I’m really a qualified person and I know so many things about my work I know that I’m able to do my work at the highest level and I really do it.
Another thing that happened to during these 2 months was linked with my personal life. I have found a man and I liked him very much. We have been together 3 weeks until he found out about my issue and didn’t call me anymore after this. I felt so bad I can’t even explain. You know, when you have some additional pounds you just can diet and make your body the way you want, but when you have an issue that you can’t change, delete or do something to change my situation. Now I feel that I’m very stressed and full of depression. Anyway I’m here because I’m looking for people that have this dyslexic issue and that maybe have passed through depression because of this, pretty much the way I do. If you are here, if you have read this and if you can help me to pass over this horrible situation I’ll be very happy and grateful to you. Know that this is an issue that will always be a part of me and I would like just to know that everything will be okay, to know that even if I have this problem I would be happy in future. I don’t want to be alone all my entire life, I want to find a person that will accept me the way I am, to find a cool job that I could be grateful for and the people working there to accept the fact that I’m a little bit different from others, but that is able to see how much potential I have. I just don’t understand why such a problem create so many issues….
Please answer to me. I really need to talk with somebody.