I remember that while I have been on Topamax that was has made me be really sleepy at night. However I have not been on this medication for that long. However, on the other hand there is Gabapentin that you guys are talking here and to me that medication has been something like this: when the devil was thinking how he can make someone suffer he invented this pill. I do realize that it is only me and many people might have found it be very helpful, but for me, on at least half of the normal dose and I was already stumbling down halls, slurring, having intense disassociative thinking processes – like for example I was thinking about how a thing is actually working (I was working as an engineer) and instead of giving the right answer, I would speak out some kind of an completely adled delusion and initially that has been seemed to be fine but then I realized that it is not. I had to think about things like 3 times before I have been realizing that this deluded memory had been wrong… and I mean, completely wrong! Something that definitely cannot be true, or that it is not in the right place in there…
This has happened constantly all day long, I was barely able to do my work and that’s since I have been questioning absolutely everything. And as if this has not been already bad enough, I would also spontaneously wake up right in the middle of some conversations that I would be having with my colleagues, that’s extremely annoying and I felt very embarrassed. There’s that just one minute when I just don’t know anything of what has been happening and then later, I am getting that feeling as if I just woke up from a very strange dream, suddenly, one that has fuzzed headed feeling you are getting when you are getting up too fast after you’ve been laying down for a while, and when you woke up so quickly you are almost passing out, and after that your head is clearing up and them, all of a sudden, I would be standing in front of somebody with absolutely no idea of what we have been talking about. As I said, this is extremely annoying and I am feeling extremely embarrassed as I have no idea what we were talking about and I just can’t flat out ask them what we were just saying? I did though, asked a few friends of mine, the closest friends that I really trusted, what has been going on and if I have been asleep there, maybe I fell down or something while been talking to them or maybe something in that matter. they said that I was clearly fully awake etc… so I had to ask them what we were talking about. But again, I could do that with only few people, best friends that I trusted, I just couldn’t do that with everyone else. That is why IMO gabapentin it is horribly insidious, I have almost lost all the respect of a lot of people at my work in the time that I have been on it because of all these ‘sleeps while being awake’. Because of such an experience I have had with it and because of all the negatives that it brought into my life, I have immediately dropped my psychiatrist, but not only because of that experience alone, also the fact that he has had me on several different stuff at the same time, and I have been falling apart, of course. During at that time I have been a research fellow art a fortune 500 company. The fact that this guy has been experimenting his stuff on me has been out of any doubts, that was as clear as a sunny day sky. When I finally realized this I got so angry that I would kill him if I ever met him again for everything that he has done. He was doing all of that consciously when he knew in what miserable life I was living in and knowing that he could change something. But no, instead of actually helping me out to live a good life, he was experimenting.
And there’s my brother in law that it is also using the GABA right now, the guy it is so think that you cannot tell the difference. And that is why I can guess are applications. Generally I should say that I personally am having a pretty bad reaction to nearly all the SSRIs out there, SNRIs, GABA analogs, to the anti epileptic medications and to anti seizure ones as well, and plus to all of those off brand pain treatments too.. in case there ever would have been some kind of an alternative reality to escape too… now would be the perfect time…