Hello, Beace. Firstly, let me tell you that I'm really and really sorry to see about what your sister is going through right now and trust I’m feeling the same for you and her loved ones. I know how hard it is and I believe that no one deserves to go through such pain! I know that this is killing emotionally you and your family, I know that this is so heart breaking when you see her suffering but you know that there’s absolutely nothing you can do for her. The feeling of “useless” is tearing our soul apart. I know this because I was in a similar situation…
Honestly, despite of all my searching, I still don't know much about myelofibrosis but the only thing I’m sure about is that the myelo part it's exactly the same type of cancer: it appears out of nowhere, makes our loved ones to suffer and then it takes them from us. In fact I would say that it is one of the worst cancers possible because you cannot have an operation, chemo or cut out that part, there’s NOTHING you can do! It is in all over your body and once it gets into your blood then you cannot replenish it with anything. I never thought about any fatal diseases and I never thought that someone from my family would ever have it but…
Last year my mother had excessive thirst for about 2 weeks and we simply thought it was diabetes but we never thought that this could be a fatal disease. Later in turned out that she was suffering from aml She was immediately put under medical monitor in the hospital where she spend her last 5 months of her life. After the doctor’s diagnose I could also get me a self-diagnose: I was so emotionally involved that my life completely changed immediately after that diagnose. It was difficult to stay there and to look, but the aftermath results were even harder… I was sitting with her every day for as long as I could, I never left her alone for a minute without a good reason but there was nothing left to do… She died on June 21 2013. So much time passed but I still cannot get over it, I can’t accept this thing. Every weekend I go to the cemetery and try to speak with her, but, as always, no response. I know that it is very horrible to lose someone you loved! What makes me angry and kills me from inside is the fact that this terrible disease suddenly appeared out of nowhere and took her away from us. This is just so unfair!
I’m sorry if I told you something that can affect you but if your sister indeed has myelofibrosis then all I can do is to try to support you. That is why you can feel free to write me any time. If you’re interested I have a lot of other things to share with you. I honestly, wish your sister good luck and a ton of health. You must be strong, but I know that it is easier to say that to do. Good luck to all your family and I hope that a miracle will happen and you’ll see your sister back on her feet.