I have been suffering from anxiety since I was a little girl. This happened after a trauma complex childhood trauma. I have always through that one day it will pass away after some years but here I’m 24 years old woman that has a big problem and still doesn’t know what to do… I have tried a lot of drugs and some of them seemed to work during some months, after that my symptoms were back with the same anxiety as before the drug and with other additional symptoms as avoidance, paranoia and very strange bad thoughts in my head that I couldn’t eliminate.
My psychologist told me that I’m close to develop a social anxiety disorder and I was so afraid of this. I started to observe that I was afraid to talk with my friends and I didn’t acted as in past. Almost all the free time I spend home with my cat, afraid of going outside, because all the time I want to go outside I feel like something is going to happen to me and the worst thing is that I always feel like something bad can happen with people I love. Sometimes I just woke up in the morning super energized and positive thinking about good things, and almost ready to call my friends and to go at least for a walk.
I can’t say that I have suicidal thoughts, usually its most about the fact that somebody is going to hurt me or hurt people next to me. I don’t know what’s happening. I would like to get rid of these thoughts as soon as possible to live a normal life
My friends support me and understand me, some of them tried to help me but it’s really hard. I’m afraid to become antisocial and loose my friends. I know what ya’ll say, that if they are my real friends they will never live me and that they will help me, but this is the life and I know that this can happen to everyone. I have heard about something like this, I know how hard it could be.
I’m here asking for help, and the most important thing now is to find the best medicine for me. Can you just share your own experience and to what have you used to pass over. Any type of advice will be appreciated. Please take it very seriously; this is my last possibility to find the way.
P.S: Recently I have found some info about Luvox, but I know nothing about it and I don’t know how it works. As well as Paxil I have heard but it’s still dubious for me because I have heard bad reviews for any of these drugs. Please help me if you can