Hi to every onlinepharmacyreviews member.
There’s an pretty interesting subject that came into my mind these days when I have been watching a documentary movie on a stream network about euthanasia and terminal patients. Well, I do not really want to discuss about the latter, I would really like more to discuss about the doctors, terminal (or maybe not necessarily terminal) patient relationships. Or maybe only a simple doctor about chronic anxiety, depression or pain patient in general lines.
We all know that usually docs are suggesting a certain dose of a certain drug for a certain illness. And in most of the cases, docs are right (but there are cases when they are not) as the certain drug with a certain dose they recommended does work well for month or maybe even some years, however, then later the effects of those medications start to fade away and that’s why the chronic anxiety or depression or pain is slowly returning back. I don’t really understand why doctors act like they don’t know like something like this is happening. I’m not willing to discuss those docs who really understand it and they do take the necessary actions for preventing this because they try to keep your whatever the problem is under control. I am talking about those docs who don’t want to help, or they act like they don’t. we’re developing tolerance to the drugs, we all know it, and we develop it to almost any kind of drug and generally to all drugs. That is why, there comes one day when we are feeling worse than we feel usual, however there’s nothing intolerable and we start bearing with it, we’re biting our lips and we are practicing self discipline. We try to bear with it however we can using a lot of methods. However, days are passing and we start noticing that our symptoms are not getting any better and we start noticing that our old dosage with our new methods of keeping our symptoms under control are all useless and they are becoming more and more useless as time passes and within few months it is getting very hard to deal with it. there’s nearly nothing else that we can do that is why we start taking the prescribed dose + about 10 to 20 % more when we’re desperate. And voila, suddenly, all of our symptoms starts to fade and they are going away and then finally – you are pain free, once again, only after you have raised your dosage.
And here goes the usual thing: you are going to your next docs’ visit and you talk with your doctor (in most cases, you only try to talk with him) that the prescribed dose he’s giving you is no longer helping you with your illness and you should do something about that because it is becoming very hard to live with it. however, in most of the cases (or when you reach it) your doctor is telling you that you are already maxed out of the dosage and there’s nothing he can do or there are also some other cases when he is simply not willing to raise your dosage (and usually he adds that because of some safety concerns) but sometimes I think that it happens just for the lolz, maybe you are having some problems with your kidneys, liver, heart or whatever else. so, despite the fact that you try hard telling him that you need help, there should be some changes done, in most of the cases he is handing you the same old script for the exact same drug with the exact same old dosage and quantity and obviously with no refills until you are going to have his next visit that would be in a month or so. Having this said, you either take the prescribed dose the entire month and you suffer or you don’t suffer for like 15-20 days because you have auto raised your dose but the rest of the days you are either living in hell or purchase some meds online. correct me if something what I have said isn’t correct.
So, after this, I do understand very well all of those folks that are already surfing the internet and they are on this forum site or some others similar to this one in order to find a remedy to this very problem that pretty usual their doc is giving them too few or generally not whatever you think that is helping you either talking about the drug itself or about the drug’s dosage. So in the end we are basically our own web doctors. We try to get some help from unknown people that we don’t even know whether they would help us or not, whether they would be sincere with us or not. we have no reasons to believe us. There is no reason that you should believe me or a reason for me to believe you but still – we listen to each other and sometimes even more than we listen to our professional doctors. I think that we haven’t gone crazy – I think that there are reasons for doing that. however, there are also other people who still think that we are crazy. I personally do not agree and I think that those people simply haven’t gone through what some of us are going through.
Here are some interesting questions for you that would make you think: do you feel some guilt that you are going behind your docs’ back and you are dosing as you wish? Are you feeling any guiltiness that you are destroying your own health??
Do you have any fears that you could hurt yourself (or maybe even worse – to kill yourself in the process) and then everybody else would find out that you were self-medicating even though you were regularly visiting to your doctor?
Personally, I am a member to a lot of forums. I like to read and to inform myself. I like to talk with other people as I think that each one of us has something precious to tell. I am reading a lot from a lot of people here and everywhere else, people who are having regular doctors and scripts and so on but my question is: why are you even bothering youself to go and to pay for your docs visits so regularly, even though you are basically already has become your own doctor after a lot of trying and experimenting. And that’s true. we are even switching, not only brands but pretty often within the same class medications, but also with different active ingredients. Like for example you are being scripted 1 mg of clonazepam, however you are switching to 10 mg of diazepam instead from an IOP because it is more helpful. however, you can make changed in your pain meds like for example going from Hydro to Oxy without your doctor knowing about it and in the end – it does help and even better than your doc told you. and here can be a list that can go like that forever.
You know what I started to think more and more lately and even more seriously? It seems to me that most of us, all we need is only one initial visit to our docs in order to get the diagnosis and maybe the active ingredient of a drug and that’s it because after this point we are able to simply become out own doctors. Even when we would keep getting the same medications, with the same dosage in the beginning and not to take big leaps right away in drug potency and in quantity. And all we are going to need is only a semi regular check up to the doctor in order to get some tests (and mostly depending on our meds) and maybe some advices. that’s it. and here we go. we have already basically became our doctors which is free.
Oh yeah, I know what you are thinking now and yeah I do agree that it is riskier, however it is not more expensive (but even much cheaper, especially if you are not having insurance to begin with), besides you are picking up your own brand as you wish and you don’t have to rely on some generic crap (which usually is expensive) that a “normal” pharmacy has in stock at that moment (and they usually always have only what they want to have). yeah, it is also riskier due to the fact that there are people who can lose control about it and especially people with controlled medications that has high abuse risk like for example benzos and narcotics are like that. however, let’s face it, pretty often it can become a problem with prescriptions too and don’t tell me that it doesn't because the doc doesn’t give the prescription for more pills that can become “abuse” that bull sh*t!
Here’s what made me think more about that: that particular documentary I have been told you about, the docs have actually cut off one woman’s vicodin prescription for breast cancer due to the fact that she started to use more and more of it and then she has finally found herself to be called an addict and that’s why she could not get anything else than just the good old Ibuprofen… and guess what? yeah, she has died a couple of months later. my question is: doesn’t it sound to be the docs fault? Generally, how f*cked up it seems to you?
Yeah, I do know and I do understand very well that in case you would raise your dosage it would also raise the risks of your health being damaged (especially because I am always reading the label and the risks that a drug carries), however it would also benefit you even more than would harm your body. there’s a thing that really pisses me off that I really can’t understand and it is why the docs are being such @ssholes about this and they are focusing on 2-3 stupid people who were really heavily abusing themselves on that specific drug and ended up badly. Most of those people were not seeking anxiety or pain freedom, they simply wanted to get high, compared to us, people who really want to simply live a normal life.
To be honest with you guys, I am not sure whether this thread is would be considered just a rant or something like that, maybe people would not even want it to be discussed, I don’t know. but I hope that some of you will tell me what do you think about it because I’m honestly very interested in finding out your opinion about this.
Talking more about me so you could understand: I am having a script for 3 x 1 mg of Klonopin per day, however, I am using Valium mostly and definitely more than Klonopin and that’s because it is working much better for me. To answer those answers. Yeah, sometimes I do feel ashamed (most of the times), I feel like I have betrayed my doctor, however, I did tried to talk with her. I did tried to explain. But she is not willing to write anything else, anything I want or I suggest her etc. she gives me only Klonopin and Ambien and that’s even that I have told her that Ambien is not working and that I would rather prefer Lunesta much more. I have discussed a lot of times. But no… I really can’t understand why she is not willing to help me? what harm does it cause to her even if the med I want would cost 10 times more? but that’s the way it goes – it is not her that the damn insomnia is interfering with her entire day and whole life so much –it is me. and yeah, I do feel bad that I am ruining my health, but I feel like I help myself more than ruining it, because I don’t use it for getting high and my last question – yeah, I do feel fear. But that’s why I am here. that’s why I am registered to so many forums. That’s why I like to read so much. I think that by doing so – I am decreasing the risks.
But in the end of the day, I am very confused sometimes. I can’t understand. There are doctors who are becoming doctors because they want to help people (and lately it seems that this category of doctors are becoming less and less) but there are also other doctors who only became doctors so they would have money and mainly because I think they want to play gods. Yeah… gods. I think that they enjoy that power that they have, they have nearly the full control over your body. they decide which would be the level of your pains, of your anxiety, the quality of the sleep, they would even decide if you would be able to walk or not the next day. and for doing that they are charging you out. this kills me. this makes me so freakin’ angry. I really have no idea how about other countries because I haven’t got any healthcare elsewhere, however, IMO the healthcare system in the US has a lot of gaps that unfortunately nobody seem to care about. I understand nothing is perfect, but the gaps are so big that it all makes me sad and angry…
That’s pretty much everything. Yeah, I do know that there is the opposite side when you just entered your docs cab and here it goes: hello XXXX, how are you feeling? *regardless of your answer* here, I wrote for you a script of 100 xanax for a month if you won’t feel well, here is also a little bit of Ambien just in case you are going to have issues with your sleeping (another 100 pills) and yeah, try sticking with Xanax but if you start noticing that it doesn’t really help you there here you are another 100 Klonopin just in case. So, that’s fine no? surely you would find something useful. Ok, bye, see you next time and tell me how you feel *and the same each money*.
Cheers.
. I mean, yeah, there are marriages when the couples are keeping even such things in secret, but I think this should not happen in a good marriage (generally in a good marriage there should not be any secrets and lies). And if he is a good doc then he/she should know it very well.